As I sit here today and ponder my WHY it takes me to so many places as I consider the various ways my WHY plays out in my life.
My 3D why is why do I do the things that I do … you know, those things that make up my attitudes, opinions, judgments, belief, and choices. The ones that make me happy, sad, joyful, angry. The ones that cause me to pause and think about how I ended up the here at this point in my life. The ones that cause me to feel worthy, or not; loved or not; lovable or not; valued or not; heard or not. The ones that drive me to action, whether they come from not feeling safe, or from fear, or from anger, or from joy … The ones that lead me to be a volunteer advocate for children for over 22 years or help with animal rescue for over 18 years or cleaning up the environment for over 12 years or take a public stand for women’s rights or even to taking a stand for the under dogs in any scenario … which I’ve done all my life.
The deepest why of course, is the why am I here, now, in this time space reality, living this life …
The why of my life purpose, mission … the why of my gifts, talents, and abilities. The why behind what I chose to experience and master in this lifetime. The why behind my contribution and give back to the humanity, county and planet.
As I go deep down this rabbit hole, I think my why comes down to my individual soul expression. In order to truly master any “thing”, one must know all that it is and all that it is not and practice that at least 10,000 times. So, my why is all about me working toward the master of the things I chose as my experiences in this lifetime.
To understand self-love, one must know all that self-love is and all that it isn’t. My why is to know self-love. So choosing this, allowed me to experience love and self-love in the many ways it is and the many ways it is not.
To understand heart-centered consciousness, one must know all that being in heart-centered conscious is and all that it isn’t. My why is to live each day from my heart in all that I do. So choosing this, allowed me to experience what it is like to live in heart-centered consciousness in the many ways it is and the many ways it is not.
To understand equality for all souls, one must know all that equality is and all that it isn’t. Each soul has its own unique path at a soul level and its own course of experiences in any given lifetime. Soul level equality is each soul’s right to pursue their own path and course according to their terms, not mine. According to what they chose to master and experience, not what I want them to do. This one is a slippery slope and often throws me into a quandary. Am I helping or hurting us both when I try to inflict my will, wants and desires onto another person and take away thier right to choose for themselves? Where do we draw the line? When it comes to children under 14 who cannot take care of themselves, I perceive my role as one of caretaker to provide them with a loving nurturing environment, where they can feel safe to express themselves and grow, as a guide to show them integrity, honor, truth, compassion and kindness. It is not my role to stiffle them, give them my baggage or prevent them from following their own path. When it comes to adults, it’s different for we all get to experience the consequenses of our actions. When I do something for someone else I have to ask what is my why behind my actions? Am I helping them? Hurting them? Denying them the growth opportunity their actions are presenting to them? If I don’t know thier soul level’s mission and purpose for the experience, how can I judge or interfere with the experience and not create karma/darma for myself and them? For the laws of the Universe say if I interfere with someone elses lessons, I take them on becuase I inserted myself. I still struggle with the hand-up and hand-out thing .. I have learned over time to just tap into my higher self and ask for guidance on what is appropriate for me to do in this cirumstance at this time. That seems to be working … for some times all the other person really needs is for me to be a sounding board where they can think outloud and encouragement that they can make the right choice for themselves.
That’s as deep as I can go down this rabbit hole today. Tomorrow is another day …
So my friends, I’d love to hear what your WHY is …
Hugs and Love, Leslie